So I still have yet to do anything with this site. That is a matter of laziness as well as unfocused vision. Therefore, I have decided to make use of this blog and more. While still being unfocused, I will slowly focus it by writing. The whole swoon, sway of where to begin is lulling me to a mind numbing death which I wish to avoid. I am no good with non-electronic tracking. I am not even that great with electronic sharing (see sporadic twitter as an example). I am better with making this a part of my day than making some normal diary that I keep hidden. Besides, I have kept enough hidden and what I wish to convey in this is as much to motivate others as well as myself. If I share my intentions, then it lends strength to my willpower to follow through with said intentions. If you can hold me accountable for my deeds, then at least someone is doing this. I am weaker than I would like and I do not wish for an excuse to reason myself out of doing something. As such, here are the way I envision things:
My mother discussed with me about making a food journal. The idea of a food journal is that if you document what you eat, then you become of what you eat. The more aware, the more one is likely to change their eating habits to be at least a little better, if not wholly so. Did I really eat three grilled cheese sandwiches and the greasiest beef stew I’ve seen in a long time? Yes. How does that make me feel? I ate a banana the next time I went for a snack. Case in point.
I will be making a subdomain with another wordpress blog to fulfill this goal. I thought about adding it here, but I doubt anyone really wants to see what I’ve eaten today. On occasion if I have something else food related to share I will likely make an entry there and link it from here. So if I eat anything interesting, you will still know about it here without reading how I’ve had a hotdog thus far today.
Also, I will be posting regularly. I want to become involved and already have a few ideas on topics to post about. Most come from the head and the heart, but it is very much necessary that I update this blog a minimum of three times a week. If I falter, write me and let me know. I want to share my life with everyone. This is not because it is extraordinary, but rather the opposite. I feel so ordinary, that I feel as if my life is just fading away unnoticed. It is not that I want attention either, but I must find something to give to others. I must find some way of sharing what little is left of me so that I will not be forgotten though I forget myself. I have opinions. I have feelings. If I falter, help give me something to share.
These two things are changes necessary for my other goals. I have other resolutions in mind. I have other goals I wish to obtain. I cannot do those without these. These will help change who I am. I can tell you of my other goals, but they are not achievable without dedication to this blog and my food journal. For example, I want to lose 100 pounds. True story. How can I do that if I don’t eat better? How can I do that if I have not shared this goal and feel encouraged when I show progress or even when I don’t? How can I do that when I have yet to write even a rough draft of what that takes, nor do I feel inspired to do so? I must lose weight this year, yet my body is weak and my mind is even weaker. If I can find the strength to write this journal, then maybe it will lend me strength towards that goal. I hope so.
I have had this domain for seven years now. I have not used it efficiently nor properly nor much of any way at all. I had simply lost sight of my dreams or felt them unimportant. I cannot afford to do that anymore. I pray that I find the time to do this right.